6w3d

and we have a heart beat! 112 beats per min. We were even able to hear it! I wasn't expecting to be able to hear it but as we are looking at flicker a wush wush sound came one. My RE was able to get us about 15 seconds of sound, amazing!

My first Ob appointment is next week. I think for now I can relax a little, but still know this is very early.

I am cleared to start doing some walking, which is good b/c I am hungry all the time right now and I'm afraid at this rate I will be a cow of a pregnant woman! Too bad its the middle of winter so I can either walk on the treadmill or join mall walkers I guess:) Other than that I still get nausea through out the day but especially at 7-9pm every night. I'm learning to be more productive when I do feel okay. Other than that I am starting to crave fruit all the time...too bad for my wallet that is not in season! Thank goodness for wholefoods!

I feel lucky

to have sore boobs, to feel nauseous all.day.long., to hate the smell of pretty much every food, and to want to sleep all the time. Lucky, very, very lucky. I couldn't believe my high beta number and the first thing I thought was omg, did the embie split? Guess my dr. had the thought too! DH went with me to see the first sono. The sac is measuring right where it should and there is just one. Next week I will go back to see if we can see a heart beat. I am happy for now but I'm sure mid-week I'll get nervous again. All we can do is hope for the best:)

I'm still on limited activity b/c my right ovary is still enlarged. Its been a month now since I've done any sort of activity b/c with in a few days of stiming I was sore. If all goes well I think I get to call this an 11 mo. pregnancy! Really it has been over a month since I've felt "well". But again, I feel lucky to say that.

So my nausea is more or less food aversion, I'm hungry but *everything* sounds so gross! Especially chicken! I actually find more flavorful food sit with me better. Bland chicken, yuck! Shrimp with spicy cocktail sauce, yum! I also have been loving garden salads...odd when you spend most of the day feeling sick but I guess its healthy. What is sad is chocolate is on my aversion list right now and I'm a HUGE chocolate lover!

I should also say I feel lucky to have such a great husband! He has been the best support for me and has taken great care of me through all of this. and the poor thing has gotten any sex since November! It was funny, I asked the RE when I could start doing some light walking/working out. When she say not yet and we could talk about it again next week I knew that included sex. DH had to ask:) Again, we can talk about it again next week.

and clear blue easy say so too:)

as it should with a second beta at 1402! I just had to see one of those little tests work for my self, there was a point I just thought they didn't work and it wasn't me. I think that also explains my seemingly all day "morning sickness". It actually started last Monday but I thought it was nerves about finding out and going back to work after 2 weeks off. I still keep thinking its too early but after going out to dinner with DH's family last night and dry heaving in the bathroom I'm a little more convinced! I actually couldn't stomach any of my food:( So, DH and I decided to tell them! His mom is out of the country this week for work but everyone else was so excited. We did preface it with "it is early, so if all goes well..." Even though we just found out with the high beta number I feel ok about it, plus it was DH birthday and his little brother was home from school for the week. My SIL and BIL are really excited to have a cousin so close in age to their little one due in June, they will be less than 3 mo apart. His mom gets back next week so I think we will buy DH favorite book for his child hood and wrap it up as a "late Christmas present" and write a note in it from the baby. I think that is how we will tell my parents too.

So, there must always be a dilemma~ they are due in June and are not finding out if the baby is a boy or girl. I *must* find out what we are having when the time is right! It is totally personal preference, but I really want to make the room a boy or a girl room! Ok, the dilemma part~ it sound like the are keeping names quiet. Well, what if we have the same names picked out? I have a couple girl name and not sure on boy names but I want to be able to pick a name before her due date in June. I'm afraid I'm going to become attached to a name and if she takes it I'm going to be really hurt. In a few more months, once I'm well into my 2nd tri, is it alright to broach the subject with her?

I'm PREGNANT!

I'm going to go buy a test so I can see it for my self! Sat. will be my second beta but I feel good for now!

The dr. office left me two messages!! Why two?? I can't decide if thats good or bad but I have 10 min. until I can leave and about 40 min. until I'm home to listen to them!!! Its killing me!

and today it is

My beta is today and I held out on testing at home. I really don't have a feeling either way....I have some "symptoms" which could either be in my head or a side effect of something I'm taking. I don't have any bad signs either, no major cramping, no spotting, etc. So I will find out at 4:30 today when I get home from work and listen to the message with dh. 9 more hours of hope!

one would think

that since I've been out of work and on bed rest I might have some time to recap the ER or ET or anything in between. I guess I just don't know what to say. I started to over stimulate so my dr. put me on bed rest. The first 3 days I felt so terrible I didn't care or want to do anything. The next day was my transfer, I was pretty sore after that. My ovaries are 10 cm and should be 3. She was very concerned and almost canceled my transfer. With only 4 embryos I was just too afraid to not transfer anything. So we settled on one. She said I was too high risk for OHSS to risk putting 2 back in and ending up with twins. I went back in this morning and one ovary is 8 cm and the other is 10. So, more bed rest! I'm drinking my smart water and taking doxtinx (sp? and I'm not getting up to look at the bottle). I'm feeling better but I can't take any risks. I really want this pregnancy to take, more than anything. And it doesn't help that only one of our embryos made it to freeze :( I'm really lucky that I have an understanding boss!

So, maybe later tonight or tomorrow I will recap the ER or ET and the silly and dumb stuff my husband has been doing, including tell the RE right before I was taken in to the ER about his head aches, like she was going to do something for him!