yup, game over.

Well, my lucky day 7/21 passed without a period or a bfp. I pretty much knew at that point af was on her way, at least when she showed up wed. am it wasn't a surprise. Now I'm onto Clomid cycle number 2 and back to getting HOT FLASHES again. And night sweats, oh, I wish my over weight cat would understand that and chose to sleep elsewhere. Nothing like waking up sweating with a 20lb fur ball laying against you. That doesn't even count the hot air emanating off my husband...maybe they could both sleep elsewhere? That is until my husband is needed for baby making!

Well, I did get some day drinking in at the beach with some friends. While my husband golfed with his friend, me and his wife hung out with the kiddos. One who was teething...so we needed some wine to go along with hers. Also took their 3 year old on a walk to the store in a double stroller...um, I think there should be stroller Olympics b/c at that size it a challenge! and it doesn't fit through anything! Plus my husband yells "cross the street now, nothing coming" as if I can just run the thing off the 6" drop of the curb as he is jogging across the street. Of course once I got to the cross walk the light had turned.

So this months cycle goes like this-

Today is day 8
O day should be 8/4
Test day should be 8/18 the day after I have a major project due at work...yesterday at work I was like I can not believe I only have 3 weeks to complete this! than last night when took my pill I was like I can't believe I still have 3 weeks left in this cycle...its going to take forever! Funny how time works...hopefully this project will make the next 3 weeks fly by.

GAME OVER?

Tomorrow AF is due to arrive...no BFP yet but I am holding out a little hope. I could over analyze every "symptom" I think I've had or not had the last few days but is it really worth it? I kind of just feel like going to bed so tomorrow is here and AF can either show or just maybe I can get a BFP. I'm half tempted to call in my clomid prescription now to trick AF...but being that w/my insurance its only $7 I don't think AF would care. I can look forward to a beach trip this coming weekend where I can freely day drink if this week doesn't turn out well!

I guess if I'm going to do this....

I should really post something! I started the blog for my entertainment and so I'll have something to look back at and laugh one day...because sometimes its just not so funny while you are going through it. So to recap the last month....



I returned to the dr. in early June to have to test done to see why we have not had success yet. She agreed that 6mo. of trying was enough to give me some help. She ran some blood tests confirming that I don't ovulate in all my cycles (at least that one anyhow). She said we could just keep trying or I could start the low doss of clomid. She wrote me the scrips and left it up to me. Some people might say we really had not been trying that long but after a good amount of research I decided to give it a go.



My "period" arrived and on the third day I started my first doss. We happen to be at the beach and of course right after I took it I thought all the bad side effects would happen and I would be miserable to be around. I'm guessing I am pretty lucky that I really had little side effects compared to other stories I've read. Except can we say



HOT FLASHES!!!



I will never make fun of my mother again for going through hot flashes. They are no joke! At first it was just night sweats. Which, while they interrupted my sleep I would just to get my husband to lay on the other side of the bed and get the 20lb fur ball of a cat to cuddle something else, I could live with that. What is not so fun is being in a meeting at work and feeling like someone turned the heat up to 110! Yes, I hear prego women say it always feels like that all the time (thus the "glow"), I'm not so much complaining about it but its a bit embarrassing when you just break out in a sweat for no apparent reason to the average on looker.



So it is now day 17...11 days to testing! I am determined to wait until day 28....ok at least day 25.