Monday, September 14, 2009

My PSA

I guess I have lots to say today! er, maybe because I took a half day to sit at the RE's office...

Back in January when we started ttc, I had my annual visit at the gyno. Told her my past problems with irregular cycles and going months with out a period. I told her in the last 6 months I had actually had 4 periods which for me was alot. She said to try on our own for 6 months and then come back, that many many many couples with irregular cycles conceive on there on, sometimes the very first time.


So that was it, I off with a scrip for prenatals (she prefers the high end ones) and her advise to use opk tests.


5 months later (just because I couldn't wait that extra month...um, gut feeling??) I was back. She said, lets start you on clomid and tested my progesterone to confirm I didn't O the cycle I was in. That was it, she said give the clomid, estrogen, progesterone protocol 3 months and then come back.


Well, that brought me to the RE's office 2 months later. I really started doing my research and found a nice article on clomid as the Valium for women who cry to the gyn about not getting pregnant. (so wish I could find it again to post here). That got me fired up, my problems were real and I felt my gyn wasn't taking me seriously.

On my first visit to the RE she went over medical history for both me and dh. RE's don't let you take clomid with out monitoring you! why? because you could develop cysts, you could think you have your peroid and really be preggo when you start your next cycle, or it may not be working at all! So after a quick sono it was pretty easy to see that I have PCOS. So if my gyn had taken an extra 5 min (or scheduled another appointment even!!) she could have seen that too, all of 8 months ago! I had blood work that day to confirm it and the HSG schedule. She said I could give the clomid another month but I was to come in on day 12 for another sono to see if it was doing anything. Well, despite what the opk test were showing I was not ovulating at all. A retest of the blood work 5 days later still showed nothing was going on. So in conclusion....if my gyn did even one blood test while I was on clomid it could have saved me a few months of useless hot flashes!

Next, I voiced my thought on having my husband get a SA to my gyn before I started the clomid...I told her how he has played very active sports a few times a week for YEARS! She said, yes that could effect his count but most guys who play sports father children with out a problem. After the 3 months of clomid she would test him.

RE- nope, going to test him right away. She says first off its such an easy test (compared to the more invasive HSG for me!) there is no reason to wait. And of course we find out his counts are not good...so even if I had o'd on one of the clomid cycles it wouldn't have really mattered. If the gyn had tested him we would have saved of few months of side effects and tears. Plus, you are limited to 6 clomid cycles and by not testing him 1st it waisted 3 of them even if I had o'd.

As a side note: the RE left it up to me if I wanted to start my third clomid (I still had the gyn scrip) but she would run the tests and monitor me. Not wanting to waste a month I started it before we had the SA. Though she said not to take the estrogen or progesterone because you only need those if the blood work shows it...and by taking them it mimics your cycle giving you the feeling that the clomid is working when its not.

For the PSA- Take your health care into your own hands. Call your insurance and find out what they cover! Even if you don't have IF coverage most tests to find our if you are going to have problems are covered. And don't think you need a referral to go to a RE, check with your insurance. Just because their practice is labeled a "clinic" doesn't make it any different then going to a dr. office. An RE will see you if you have had a history of irregular cycles. And if they run the tests and everything shows normal, you can still try on your own. But if they find something you will save your self months of stress!

I changed my blog title

It seems more fitting...last year everything baby that crossed my path just made me want one. All the cute baby clothes, nursery stuff, all those damn pottery barn kids catalogs and the sight of all our friend's little ones. Now it seems getting this baby is going to be like a science fair project with me as the main subject. As noted before, PCOS seems to be to blame on my end. Had the HSG and that was all clear (finally good news! and it really didn't hurt as much as I was thinking). My husband repeated his SA, much higher sperm count (tho still a bit lower than normal) but still less than 1% are good. This weeks tests include blood sugar and Jewish genetic disorders for me and hormone levels for him. Though non-practicing my family is from eastern Europe and if I'm a carrier dh will be tested because his has Jewish heritage too...funny that he is Greek orthodox. He is half Greek and half polish, I am Hungarian, Lithuanian and German...our kids are pretty much guaranteed dark hair and have a small chance of getting my blue eyes. If I was Greek we would be tested for Greek genetic disorders, this is all due to family marring family back in the day. Read Middlesex (an Oprah book club book), very good book about what inbreeding can do. I'm not too worried about this but if we move forward with IVF and we are both carriers for certain genes they will do tests on the embryos. When these test results come back we will decide how to move forward. Until then I am awaiting AF but since I didn't O this cycle not sure when she will show...if I get to 42 days I can take progesterone to start.

Now, doesn't this sound like a science fair project more than baby making?

Italy anyone?

I find irony in the travel magazines in RE's office. While sitting in the waiting room today I passed the Italy issue to my husband...who said "Italy? um, maybe sometime." and I thought isn't that the truth! We are of the very luck ones who have some sort of IF coverage, all be it $20K is not going far but its something! After $20K its out of pocket for us. So its not like we are planing any big international vacations right now and I don't really see it in the cards with a new born either. My mother in law is planning her trip to Greece for next summer and we are dying to go back, funny just a few months back we said, "well, if I got pregnant this month the baby would be 6 months old...do you think we could handle a 9 hour flight?" Then it was 5 months, then 4, then 3, then we said "well if it doesn't happen this month there is no way". Now if I do get pregnant I wouldn't be due until after she comes back.

So in conclusion, I really do like everyone at my RE's office, but lets think about the magazine selection a bit more...

Friday, September 4, 2009

Just not my month...

If anyone did read my last post I decided to delete it because it was not very nice...but no, my sister in law is defiantly not preggo! I'm not actually even sure if they are trying, the Internet searches could have been about her friends b/c I know her bff just had a baby so who knows.

On to my news...no new is good new...too bad I have too much news. The only positive from the last month is my project went very well! Yeah for me! as for the rest of it-

Clomid cycle two ended with AF on the day of my big review of said project, don't ask me how I kept it together but lets just say instead of the celebratory happy hour everyone else wanted I came home and took Tylenol pm until I passed out for 12 hours.

But I am no time waster at this point, I had an appointment on day three of my cycle at the RE's office- new dr. -so over my gyn...more on that later.

FSH done, normal. Yeah! at least I have eggs in there somewhere.

Sono shows PCOS...not a total shock, 8 years ago I was told it was a possibility, but my current gyn thought I was having "normal" cycles so I really didn't question this too much. Sono also show no large cyst, all clear for clomid cycle #3. HSG test scheduled to see if tubes are clear and if uterus is shaped correctly.

DH gets seaman analysis.

Day 9- + opk, thus HSG canceled.

Go for blood work and mid-cycle sono on day 12...shows nothing. Nothing is going on, my LH is high b/c of PCOS and the only thing clomid is doing is giving me hot flashes. HSG rescheduled for next week.

SA results...low count and very low morphology...so what sperm are there move but there are not many of them and only 1% are the right shape.

Spend entire day crying then drinking enough wine to pull it together to get to a rehearsal dinner one of my DH's bffs. timing sucks.

and the kicker- its MY sister who is preggo. my little sister at that. she is the very first one of her friends to even get married let along pregnant. THIS JUST SUCKS.