Just not my month...

If anyone did read my last post I decided to delete it because it was not very nice...but no, my sister in law is defiantly not preggo! I'm not actually even sure if they are trying, the Internet searches could have been about her friends b/c I know her bff just had a baby so who knows.

On to my news...no new is good new...too bad I have too much news. The only positive from the last month is my project went very well! Yeah for me! as for the rest of it-

Clomid cycle two ended with AF on the day of my big review of said project, don't ask me how I kept it together but lets just say instead of the celebratory happy hour everyone else wanted I came home and took Tylenol pm until I passed out for 12 hours.

But I am no time waster at this point, I had an appointment on day three of my cycle at the RE's office- new dr. -so over my gyn...more on that later.

FSH done, normal. Yeah! at least I have eggs in there somewhere.

Sono shows PCOS...not a total shock, 8 years ago I was told it was a possibility, but my current gyn thought I was having "normal" cycles so I really didn't question this too much. Sono also show no large cyst, all clear for clomid cycle #3. HSG test scheduled to see if tubes are clear and if uterus is shaped correctly.

DH gets seaman analysis.

Day 9- + opk, thus HSG canceled.

Go for blood work and mid-cycle sono on day 12...shows nothing. Nothing is going on, my LH is high b/c of PCOS and the only thing clomid is doing is giving me hot flashes. HSG rescheduled for next week.

SA results...low count and very low morphology...so what sperm are there move but there are not many of them and only 1% are the right shape.

Spend entire day crying then drinking enough wine to pull it together to get to a rehearsal dinner one of my DH's bffs. timing sucks.

and the kicker- its MY sister who is preggo. my little sister at that. she is the very first one of her friends to even get married let along pregnant. THIS JUST SUCKS.