playing the game

Its so silly. Its pretty obvious my SIL is ttc or even pregnant. And I know she suspects I am too. She has been watching my alcohol intake for the last 7/8 months. I've always cut out alcohol during the 2ww and if we were at a family dinner during that time I would just have a glass of wine over the course of 3 hours. Well DH's family are big wine drinkers so they constantly want to refill your glass. So I know she has picked up on it. I also wasn't drinking while on clomid because of the terrible hot flashes and she picked up on that too. Alcohol does not seem to be my friend lately so I've pretty much quit drinking going into my IVF cycle. More than a glass of wine and too many emotions come out. Plus bcps make me nauseous enough.

So last night there was a big dinner for my MIL's birthday. When everyone was arriving at the restaurant I noticed my SIL was only drinking sparkling water with a lime. All I thought was please don't let her make a big announcement at dinner! Then she come over to me and basically kept trying to figure out a way to get me a drink. Um, I see the waitress too, if I wanted something I'd order it! When the waitress came around and I said I was fine, she come over and was like "oh, let me get you some wine". Its like she wanted to hear me flat out decline to drink! I just said I'll wait until dinner. Then all through dinner she kept watching my glass (which I was drinking but slowly). Then she whispered to her husband to look at my glass (I could half hear her and then he was pretty freaking obvious). Well she wasn't drinking either! At the end of dinner I took a look. Her glass was full with out any lipstick marks on it.

I leave her alone about it, I wish she would do the same for me. I feel like one of us is going to be hurt when the other one gets pregnant. Her constant monitoring of what I'm doing makes me feel like this is a competition. Ok vent over.